About

My Story
I spent decades learning art by imitating the masters. Now I want to create.
Art. Writing, drawing, classical dancing, music, painting.
Throughout my life, I've practiced these disciplines at various levels of commitment. From hobbies to Bachelor's Degrees, and teaching. I've lived the good and the bad sides of the artistic industry.
Music was the last art where I put all my endeavor, and which many people still associate me with, although I relaxed quite a lot about it many years ago.
The approach I mainly practiced for decades in music learning and dancing was interpreting the works of others. Although I learned a lot and enjoyed many parts of it, there was a point where I couldn't bear it anymore. I felt the need to create something original.
At the same time, after witnessing (and experiencing) the insane dark side behind the process of producing music at its higher levels, I started questioning whether an unhealthy learning approach of the arts does any good to humankind.
Trapped in the narrative of the "suffering artist" for years, I lived my art while in an unhealthy mental and physical state. Eventually, I reached a point when it was unbearable and unsustainable.
Wouldn't it be better if I produced from a healthy state of being?, I wondered.
So, in the last years, I've been on the constant lookout for balance, well-being, and mental health to try to answer this question.
What could I create if I part from a being-healthy-first approach? Being healthy first, then create.
While in this process, I'm exploring the idea of creativity in the general sense, from all the angles I can, doing what I've always loved to do: writing. Giving me permission to question everything, including music itself.
I have lots of questions regarding art, creativity, and learning. I'm eager to explore all these questions through personal experimentation and serious research. This website is the home for those explorations.
If you feel intrigued about it, you are invited to be part of Pitaya Letters, a newsletter where I'm documenting my creative process through monthly emails.
*About the photo: The path goes up! It's a hill. Somehow, it expresses the feeling of going up a steep hill, while feeling like it seems I'm going down.
Last page update: 15th of July, 2025.